Lil Nas X reveals he was ‘scared’ to be vulnerable in debut album Montero
There are few artists out there that stir public debate as much as Lil Nas X. His demeanor on social media makes sure he is always trending on Twitter for one reason or another. However, away from social media, Nas is a human just like anyone else. In a recent interview, the rapper admitted that he felt scared to display his vulnerability in his debut album, Montero.
For Lil Nas X, his debut album Montero is like his child
On Friday, September 17, the world first heard Lil Nas X’s debut album Montero. However, the buildup to the album caused a lot of uproars. Nas’s pregnancy photoshoot really plunged Twitter into a heated debate, with liberals being riled up as much as conservatives. But, the reason for that photoshoot was that Lil Nas X considered Montero album his literal child. In an interview with PEOPLE magazine, Nas said:
I’m like a mother sending her child out into the world. I’m super excited for everyone to hear this piece of art I’ve been working on for such a long time.
Moreover, the MONTERO (Call Me By Your Name) singer revealed that working on the album truly changed him in numerous ways. Lil Nas X continued:
I’ve changed the way that I handle a lot of situations, the way I manage my sadness and anger, and just understanding that I don’t have to react to emotions in certain ways. I can’t choose how I feel, but I can choose how to react. I’ve learned to let people’s comments roll off my back. The only person that really has to believe in me is myself. It’s been a lot of self-affirmations this year that I probably would not have been able to do two years ago.
The rapper reveals the vulnerability he displayed in the single Sun Goes Down
Lil Nas X was then asked about his song Sun Goes Down and revealed how personal that song was. It was about how he reflected on his sexuality and revealed how he was initially scared of publishing that song, as it described his predicament in his most vulnerable moment. The rapper said:
To be 100 percent honest, I didn’t want to do that song at first. I guess it was because I’ve never done something so personal. I was scared to let people see my vulnerability because I didn’t want them to use it against me. But when I released the song, I got messages from people telling me that it saved their life. It doesn’t feel real quite yet.
Behind the truly savage persona on social media, Lil Nas X has his own struggles. And he uses art masterfully to demonstrate to the world the kind of person he is. And considering his amazing songs like Old Town Road and Industry Baby, his trajectory is headed towards a meteoric rise.