Taraji P. Henson admits she thought about suicide during quarantine
The ‘Empire’ actress talked about a very dark moment during the quarantine. Taraji P. Henson shared that she was thinking a lot about committing suicide when things got especially hard.
The actress shared that during quarantine, she got in a very dark mental state. She ended up having what’s known as suicide ideation. Taraji P. Henson talked about the moment in her Facebook Watch Series ‘Peace of Mind with Taraji’ which she co-hosts with Tracie Jade.
For a couple of days, I couldn’t get out of the bed, I didn’t care. That’s not me. Then, I started having thoughts about ending it.
Henson also shared that she had recently bought a gun. She admitted that she thought about using it to end her own life:
I could go in there right now, and just end it all.
Taraji P. Henson even revealed that she thought how her death was going to affect her son, Marcell Johnson, telling herself that he would be okay since he’s all grown up.
The actress ultimately ended up telling someone about the dark thoughts she was facing. That definitely helped her in getting out of the dark state she was in:
“I felt myself withdrawing. People were calling me, I wasn’t responding. I just didn’t care. Finally, I’m talking to one of my girlfriends and I knew, I was smart enough to say, ‘I have to say it,'”
Even though she was afraid of what people would think about her:
“I was like, I don’t want them to think I’m crazy. I don’t want them to, you know, obsess over me or think they gotta come and sit on me.”
And then she opened up and it helped her:
“So one day I just blurted it out, to my girlfriend. She called me in the morning and I was like, ‘You know I thought about killing myself last night,'” Henson said, taking a big breath and then adding, “‘Oh my god, I feel so much better. I’m not gonna do it now.'”
But fortunately, Taraji P. Henson started to feel better about herself. She ultimately overcame the darkness she was facing.
“I felt myself slipping and so I was like, ‘You know what I am not going to do is let 50 happen to me. I am going to get control of this mentally and not be like, ‘You are getting old, don’t nobody care, you ain’t working,’ Well, duh, no one is working, it is COVID. So I felt that coming.”
Happy to hear that she is doing good now.
If you or someone you know is going through anxiety, distress, depression or thoughts of harming yourself, please call National Suicide Prevention Helpline.