Youtuber Brittani Boren Leach’s Infant Son Dies
It’s painfully breaking to hear of the death. It’s even worse when it’s the death of an infant. We can definitely not imagine the pain that YouTuber Brittani Boren Leach is going through right now. Christmas time may be a time of celebration and fun, however, Brittani lost her 3-month-old son, Crew, on Christmas day. Leach is the mother of four boys and one stepdaughter. She posts youtube videos of her experiences with the kids. She has around 164 subscribers on her channel.
Last Thursday, Brittani posted a picture of her holding the hand of her son and the caption was truly heartbreaking.
I don’t have any words right now, other than to desperately ask for your prayers. Not the kind that you say “I’m praying for you” and don’t, but the kind where you fall on your knees and beg God for a miracle. While at a relative’s house last night, Crew laid down for a nap and when I went to check on him, he was not breathing. We are living a nightmare, and I’m dying inside. Please pray for my baby. This can’t be real.
She later posted another photo of the baby on a ventilator saying that he might have been stable.
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Right now Crew is “stable” and the ventilator is breathing for him. They are working on stabilizing his body and tomorrow he will have an MRI to determine his brain function and that will determine the next step. I can’t explain to you what this feels like. This kind of thing only happens to “other” people. Not me. I just want to crawl in bed with my baby and nurse him. Instead I’m standing here with a breast-pump in my bra where my baby should be… begging God for a miracle. Please continue to pray. Please. I don’t think I can go on without him. #prayforcrew
So after a while of trying to hold onto the hope, the family decided that it was time to let go. However, the family did something else too.
Here’s the fate of Brittani Boren’s Baby
The couple decided to donate the dying boy’s organs to 4 different children whose lives could be saved. That is a beautiful cause. They are using their young one’s death to be a source of light for those around them.
She later posted a photo of herself sitting by the door crying and well, we don’t even have to say it again. Our hearts broke hearing the pain of the YouTuber.
It’s all just too much. All of it. I know God has a plan for this, but I’m really really mad at him right now. I cry behind the bathroom door while Jeff holds me, because in the room over everyone else gets to laugh and go on with their lives, and it makes me so angry. Running tests on my sons body to see how his organs are functioning before they take them. Pumping breastmilk just to pour it down the drain. Hearing a baby cry. Seeing a baby his age. Shopping Nordstrom for the dress I’ll wear to my son’s funeral. It’s all too much. I’m sorry to vent, but this is my heart. And I need all the prayers to get through this.
Despite Crew’s time being short, Brittani and Jeff made quite a few memories around the little one. The memories are being a source of great pain for the stars. We hope they recover from this difficult time soon.